No matter how hard I tried to drag my feet to slow down that carousel of time (courtesy of Joni Mitchell), the day arrived. The youngest started college. I put on a Brave Face but don't think I fooled anyone. The day was a blur of schedules and lines and check-ins and unloading and unpacking. I tried to savor the moments with him but with the rush and people and new friends, we didn't have 60 seconds alone together. Three years earlier, I had the same experience with his sister and I had to chuckle to myself at how similar those two are. They were about to jump out of their skin with excitement, but refrained a little to make me feel better. I remember that feeling oh so well. Freedom, independence, making my own rules {sigh}.
It was bittersweet but I did better than I thought, I guess because I feel I've raised two really happy kids. They both have joy in their lives and who could ask for more?
My heartbeats |
Moving In |
In one hour, he had it decorated like this . . .
The friends started to arrive and before we knew it, it was time to say goodbye . . .
I had been quietly sobbing in the bathroom five minutes earlier! |
The most painful part of the day was witnessing this:
And so it is done . . . He is Happy, everything is just as it should be . . . Let It Be.